I had more Reiki today, for moments as I lay there I felt my body lift off the table, it was transcendental, it was spiritual and it was my moment, today I saw gold and I felt warm and afterwards my beautiful, gorgeous reiki practitioner Susan told me that she could see my face changing, she told me I was becoming more glowy, going back to the Goddess I used to be before all of the mess began, reconnecting with myself, the universe and God, the energies, the vibrations, those higher powers that we need to embrace to help to recreate and fulfil our goals on the earth.

I am at a crossroads, I know where I want to be and I know what I want, I have asked myself the three important questions I ask other entrepreneurs or people in need of guidance - 

1.  Where are you right now?

2.  Where do you want to be?

3.  What are you going to do to get there?

I'm struggling with the third answer, lots of things are beyond my control but there are certain aspects I know I can already plug into, focus on and with a little energy I might just make it through the first few steps.

Strangely for me and I know I'm usually so honest and open but I don't want to go into it all yet,  one thing I am fixed upon is that I want to work hard to make sure that I am not only continuing to write but that I am focused on wanting to write more and I want that writing to make me more of an income than it is currently, I want to couple it with sensational imagery, the kind I've learned to create magic with over the last 10 years but I need to take the direction of travel and lifestyle more seriously than I ever have before.  I will never give up being a family portrait photographer because it lives in my soul but it's also a very demanding career and I can't see me shooting 10 portrait sessions a day every weekend for the rest of my life, especially during the winter months when my Raynaud's Phenomena is at it's worst.  Shooting for extended periods in the snow, for example, can be utterly painful.

So I have a plan or the start of a plan, in the same way, you helped spread the word about my dating profile, how about this for an idea?  If you're reading my blog and you usually enjoy dipping in and out, you don't have to read every article, It's a cornucopia after all and some parts will always be more relevant than others but what if you told a friend about my blog?  Would it be possible that I could double my readership?  What if you told someone you thought would really get it?  Would they then go and tell someone else as well?  Joel A Barker says "When you drop any new idea into the pond of the world, you have to be aware that you will be creating a cascade of change"

So, you tell someone and I'll keep writing and in fact I'll write more, I'll write faster and harder and better than ever before as my gift back to you and the rest of the universe.

Thank you in advance lovely

internet friends, thank you!

When will my life begin?

I must get 10 bonus points for actually having a photo of Rapunzel that I took myself!

Ok, get over yourself Mandy, yes I know, I've resorted to quoting Rapunzel this morning but  "When will my life begin?" keeps coming up on my music selection along with my current themes "I can do better than that" and "Patience" and so I feel there must be a message in there.  Maybe I should grow my hair?

Today, I am stressed out, I woke up at 5am worrying about work and clients and editing and the truth is that 2 weeks ago I had 12 photo shoots, 1 event and 3 weddings to edit and now I have 1 wedding and a couple of events so why I didn't feel quite so angst-ridden as I do right now I'm not really sure.

The thing is I've come to a place in my life where I've been able to accept that I'm not a bad person, this makes up for years where I thought I was destined to go to Hell but that's another blog post entirely.

I don't regret any decision I've ever made in my whole life because every event that has happened has brought me to the place I am today and yesterday as I listened to my numerology report being read to me it confirmed everything, destiny takes you to the places you are supposed to be.  I have a whole blog to write about the Numerology experience but this one is just an off the cuff moment where I suddenly felt compelled to write.

Today I'm going for another session of much needed Reiki, I find that it soothes my soul just enough to get through the weeks, my life is so constantly busy with work and clients and events and openings and I am so very grateful to the place I've got today but as I've said in previous blog posts I feel a little flat and without focus or direction like I'm still waiting for something to happen.  Well more than that now, I know I am on the precipice of something which is big, wonderful and hurtling towards me, I know now that I must keep telling my story and actually that I should write even more than I have been for it's only when I write and share that I truly feel nourished.

Everyone of course has a story to tell and mine isn't necessarily more special than anyone elses but I've been given a voice and I've been given a platform and I'll keep writing for as long as I possibly can.  One day I hope my story will be complete, In my heart, in the empty half which waits to be filled by my soulmate, I have to hope that I will one day feel completely whole again.

There's a saying isn't there that nothing worthwhile was ever simple, that you have truly fight for the things you want in life and no quest is too hard if it in the end completes you, well I hope that's true because so far in my life I have completed a million quests, tripped over a thousand hurdles, loved like I never thought I could and currently I am tired and worn out, I need to take some time for me and that's hard when you're a self employed single parent, it's hard not just financially but also physically because you are aware that so many people have so many great expectations of you, I wonder though, if it's just possible to stop the revolving earth we're on just for a second in time, I long to sit on a sunny beach and watch a sunset, I long to travel, I long to be held in someone's arms who truly loves me, I know that it's all going to happen, I know it in my heart but just for a moment today I wonder, when will my life begin?

What is a Reiki Session really like?

Yesterday morning I sat down to start writing an article, what usually happens is I just go to my Macbook and open it and on a good day inspiration happens and I empty out the contents of my brain, it's the best way to write I've found and I'm still pretty rubbish at writing even just a few posts in advance, I write best when I am inspired and happy or when I am sad and my heart hurts, I'm not sure why this is but I know that I have an ability to write page after page when I am experiencing times of great angst.  Today is obviously not that day as it's now 24 hours later and I've sat with my blog page open trying to write for hours without saying a thing!

I think perhaps it sums up my general mood and slight malaise at the moment, I said in my last post that I'm in a transitional time, I am between peaks or troughs and I guess I'm just waiting for the next thing to happen.

Yesterday I had Reiki for the very first time, I am still coming to terms with what I experienced so please forgive me if my description isn't the most erudite paragraph I've ever written.  Reiki is otherworldly, it connects you to things which are bigger than you, as I lay there with my eyes shut I felt the sensation of warmth and the sun on my face, I saw colours of red and orange and yellow, at one point I felt so emotional I thought I was about to cry, but then I felt myself smiling at other points, I experienced tingling, nausea, temporary dull pain and a force in my chest, my solar plexus where I usually feel my anxiousness in and I knew that was the anxiety and all of the negative feelings within me were trying to leave, had they left and I'd felt the power of the release I am sure I might have collapsed with relief but I'm so naturally uptight that it's going to take more than 1 session for that to happen, I have no doubt that sooner or later it will though.

I saw before me the things I want in my life, love, companionship, travel, to share experiences with you, the world, I want to take you on journeys as you sit at home or at work reading my words, I want you to feel and grow with me, I want you to feel like you are never alone as long as you are reading my blog and coming on adventures with me every day for it is the thought that you are there which powers me to keep on writing.

I also saw the need to let go, that I am holding onto things which are holding me back, the life I lived which made me who I am today, some of that is still toxic to my own universe, I need to move on, I need to not feel the pain anymore, I need that great release and I know that it is coming.  Susan my reiki master guided me on a journey today without even saying a word, I felt her presence as we shared an experience which was wholly spiritual and healing, there is a power out there as Susan described, it's whatever you want to call it, God, an energy, a vibration and when we are attuned we feel it so perfectly that we vibrate at the right frequency and we are healed and energised.

I have to wait for around a week now, just to see what happens, for just a little while, maybe even just periods of seconds I felt completely aligned with life, the universe and everything and so I must wait to see what comes back, Susan advised that I need to be within nature because when I am surrounded by nature I heal, anyone who knows me well knows that this is definitely the case, when I am outdoors surrounded by the beauty of nature in all it's forms I feel at my happiest, when I have sunshine on my face I have joy in my heart and even more so when I have a friend or even Holly Bobbins besides me.

Magical, wonderful things are about to happen this week, they will drive me, inspire me, they will push me on to the next great phase in my life, I know it, it's just being patient and waiting for them to happen that is the hard part.

I received a complimentary Reiki session from Susan at the Cloud 9 Wellbeing in Cullercoats, it was a gesture of hope and kindness and love and faith but I promised non the less than I would write about it and let you know just how amazing it was, at the moment they have an offer of 3 Reiki Sessions for £100 and you get a Himalayan salt lamp as big treat for saying thank you, you know what I'm on a mission to make some income for this week!

In conversation with...Susan Smalley, Medium, Teacher, Healer

I recently had the pleasure of photographing today's interviewee for her new website and let me tell you, what a wonderful lady Susan is, medium, teacher, healer, there's just no end to the talents of this very special woman, spending just an hour with her left me feeling happy and re-energised and ready to conquer the world and that was just photographing her on the beach, imagine the things she could do for you, not only is she a medium, she is also a reiki master, a life coach and someone who can heal in times of feeling low.  Susan is based in Durham but has clients all over the world, you can book a Skype call with her and it's just as good as being with her in real life.

and so here are those all important questions - 

1.  What's on your desk right now, tell me 3 things you can see on your desk

On my desk right now, there is a gold chunky candle, a huge wooden heart painted turquoise, and a myriad of coloured pens.

2.  Sum up your business in 3 words

Medium    Teacher      Healer   

    

3.  What inspires you?

The strength of those I see who have been through turmoil emotionally, physically, mentally, materially, when I see them turn their lives around.  You cannot escape the inspiration that gives you as an Intuitive Life Coach, and Medium/Healer…  the feeling I experience when hearing of their plight - diminishing my own niggles and pains into insignificance.  I am inspired too by the ocean, the colours, designs, shapes and heights, of flowers and trees and shrubs, rock faces, pebbles, gems, crystals, and scents.. natural energies of the mountains, waterfalls, and skies.   The breeze inspires me, reminding me all is not permanent, the changes seasons, that reflects as mirror the life within us as we age.   All expression of love inspires me.  Hope.  God.  and of course, myself – I have learnt that to be friends, and appreciative of your own love, strength and kindness, you push on with replenished inspiration to face each new day with a positive mind.  

4.  What are you working on right now?

I am working on completing my Tarot Manual for students to learn the journey of the Tarot.  I am working on video tutorials explaining the various meanings in the hope of unlocking and developing the intuitive side of students, so they can use this as a daily tool to aid them when feeling down.  Training of Healing Instructions along with Reiki Healing channelling video.  I am working on Meditations to help those who are stuck, to find an escape route to recovery. 

5.  Any exciting things coming up that you want the world to know about?

Yes!   The much awaited launch of my new website, all that is entailed within, which is exciting for me in that it introduces a new way of working with increasing clientele worldwide.

6.  Imagine you met an alien, how would you explain your business to them?

I inspire humans to open up to their own spiritual self, to develop their understanding of parapsychology, expand their awareness and educate them in all things metaphysical and assist them in healing their past so that can enjoy without restriction the beautiful world into which they live.   I do this in person, on a one to one, in a group or workshop, but can work with those in distant places via the amazing technology we here on earth enjoy at present.

7.  Favourite Inspirational Quote?

“A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle”

Proverb

8.  Favourite music to work to?

David Garrett - Meditation (Thais)

9.  Where do you see yourself/your business in 5 years time 

I see my business rising in status worldwide with the exposure from internet technology widening my client via the video training, with appearances at workshops and seminars

In venues around the world, in addition to my working in my own healing sanctuary in a rural location in order for education, healing, closer to home, with a continuing passion for all I do and more publications being circulated through press with all related articles, books, and video presence.  A weekly radio two hour show which will educate, and inspire.

10.    So many people are choosing to start their own businesses every day, what's your top tip to encourage them?

Remain true to yourself & act with integrity.    

I'd like to say a big note of thanks to Susan for being an investor in the UK Cityscapes Project

If you would like to get in touch with Susan Smalley, Medium, Teacher, Healer you can find her here - 

Susans Smalleys Website

Susan Smalley Intuitive Life Coach, Spiritualist Medium & Reiki Healer

Twitter.com/SusanSmalley

or you can skype Susan at (Skype name:  susan.smalley.spirit.medium)

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